In Hospital

My husband has CF.

This weekend, we are in the hospital together, as his body tries to fight off a serious infection that has kept him feverish for a week now.

I got a temporary job as an adjunct college counselor at a local junior college and we found an affordable month-to-month studio apartment. I'm hoping to work so hard at this summer position that they decide to keep me permanently. We'll see.

My faith is in a constant flutter of hope and despair. God keeps bringing testimonies of His providence to me at my darkest moments. And He has blessed us both with wonderful families, who show their love through actions that often make me cry.

At the end of the day, I still get to say, "My husband..." And that is a major answer to prayer that I hold tightly to whenever I start to wonder if God can hear me anymore.

Thank You Jesus for Your constant care through times of immense stress and fear.

(For my blogs as a single girl, click here.)

First New Blog

Hello again world.

This is my first blog as a married woman.

(For my old blogs, go to: http://beautylikehennaministries.blogspot.com/) 

I haven't blogged in a while, due to the frantic pace of my life recently. In the past two years, I started graduate school, worked two internships, met the love of my life, married him, graduated from graduate school, and am now furiously looking for work in Southern California in Higher Education/Student Affairs/College Administration.

I have a Master of Science in College Counseling and Student Development. And I am having a difficult time obtaining interviews. I've worked full time as a Resident Director, twice. I've worked full time for years, hiring, training, and supervising college students. And yet I am still finding it difficult to get interviews.

Part of the issue is that I need to stay in Southern California.

That's where it seems every other Student Affairs professional in the world wants to work. Every job I apply to gets about one hundred applications.

I am trying as hard as I possibly can to do what I can and trust God that He has my life in His hands and will take care of my needs. I don't know why this is so hard for me, to be honest. God has proven Himself faithful in my life every step of the way. He has blessed me beyond reason in the midst of depression and heartache, when there was no way out that I could see.

Surely, getting my husband and me jobs isn't hard for Him! And yet the fear and defeat continues to fight its way into my thoughts on a daily basis.

Right now, this is my battle - to use my Shield of Faith as a blind to the firey darts of fear that the Enemy continues to shoot my way.

Hopefully, I can blog soon about how God triumphed for me and about the jobs my husband and I now have and love.